Things I learned Today.

Letting ice cold water just flow over your body
does not wash away old scars and gashes.
Instead, it makes blood run out of them
making them feel red and scorching all over again.

Further it reminds you of those moments
when you had fallen too weak
when so much as breathing was leaving you tired
when you had not been able to stand up
when you found your own body giving in to the pain

You feel your eyes tearing warm
while ice water continues to run down your face.

Things don't last.
Happiness never lasts, pain and sorrow always replace it.
So eventually cold water does what it does best.
It makes your lips and nails turn blue
It makes your heart grow numb, patch and dot blackish grey.

So I stand in the ice cold water for hours everyday
letting it freeze me limb by limb layer by layer.